My inner journey began with a friend handing me Conversations with God in 1999. I read the whole book in one sitting on a beach in Melbourne. As I read the words: ‘If not you, who? If not now, when?’ something exploded inside me. You know when you have been called. It was not until meeting my spiritual teacher Mooji in 2008 that I experienced a spontaneous awakening. We might say, in one moment in a park, I stumbled into the undivided, timeless nature of reality.
I walked in parks in a state of bliss. I sat for hours beneath trees. For years, I had no preference to be in a body or not, I was immersed in a silence so beautiful. But it was difficult to relate to people. And there was childhood trauma that had never integrated… this made my beyond-the-body state preferable. Gradually, insistently, there was a calling to integrate the awakening back into the ground of my human experience. To take care of the trailing edges! This meant being willing to re-land in my body and meet old wounds, from presence, with deep compassion, no stone left unturned.